As I rise above the waves,
You're there to meet me.
But deep in my soul I'm longing
For 'him' to be by my side.
He was the one who would crash
Against me and tear me apart,
And you've helped me to come back
Together, but I know I can never
Love you as I love him.
It's all chaos and I should love you
But he did something to me
To make it so I will only and always love him.
I'm sorry. I don't deserve you anyway,
And he doesn't deserve me.
Natalie Susan Smith